Tuesday Morning, August 18th

Good Morning Everyone

Well it has been a long time since my last blog. Although it is never far from my mind, I now have a tebdancy to hold off with the writing in the hopes that the story has ended and there will be nothing to share, but the truth is is that this is a living document that will never end while I am still of this world.

Whenever I think of Allie, I smile and give thanks for how far we have come. One could look at what has happened in a pholosophical and theorethical fashion as I choose to drawing my stregnth from God and an understanding of theory or what is possible. I also draw strength from the Universal and metaphysical laws of the universe, meaning that everything happens in accordance with a master plan. So what happened had to happen and what is happening happens with the steps that we take to drive it in a particular direction. So why do I write these feelings about what we do and how we feel. In order to possible help someone who may be going through what we did and are going through.

Allie is finishing up a 5 day stay at her nana's house in NY and is now on her way to the airport to come homw. She just text messaged and said she wanted to live there. Nana has that effect on people butcome home she must. Allie begins college again in a few days. Incredibly she is scheduled to take 13 credit which is fantastic and while I will be there rooting for her and helping in every way, I am once again not attached to the outcome. Everyday she is becoming more and more mature and it is all of our dreams to see her through this year of school and then tpo see her transfer to one with a dorm so she will live on her own. Doable? Very doable! She is awesome. One of the things she has taken a passion to is jewlery making and has created quite a number of beaded product which I would swear came from a store but I watched her make them. She is also driving again by herself so if you are in Brevard, watch out Smile, smile.

Nancy and I were talking this morning about her stay in the hospital during breakfast this morning and as we relived it we once again became comitted to getting the message. out to how people should protect themselves and their loved ones during that time and discussed ways we can help. Unfortunately the further removed you are from a situation the less memory you have of it and the intensity of your desire goes down. I promise you I will not lose either and although things may not have materialized yet the way I planned or sopke of originally, that does not mean they will not, it only means that at that time I lacked the understanding of the process it takes to recovery and how long it would occupy us once along with needing and wanting to give time and love to our other child. It will happen because of this blog (all my notes are in it) and because it needs to.

Before I end this long message, I again want to say to all of my friends out there who are going through a similar situation, stay with God, stay the course and don't give up! Study on what is happening, don't just believe the guy in the white coat, be proactive, don't wait for the nurses or expect anyone else to be on your side - you are in charge so take charge, be open to alternative methods, heck they don't know everything - if alternatives did not work they would not be here,

Again I believe neurofeedback has been a blessing for Allie and has created the change necessary to bring her to the next level.

Create a journal of what happened, and what continues to happen on a daily basis. I have never to this day re-read mine but I will someday, however I am so glad it is there to remind me how strong my love for my family and friend is and how strong my belief in God is. It show me how We took charge to help our daughter when other did not. It serves as a reminder that we have an obligation to help others.

Life is good.

Allie's Dad