Saturday Afternoon, May 31, 2008

HI Everyone

Wow. Mistake in the first word and I am still not going to go back and correct it. I really don;t know where I left off because I still have not gone back to read the blog but something told me to write again. You Know, the longer you get away from the accident the more you seem to forgetbut the more you seem to remind yourself because you do not want to forget. You want to remeber or at least I want to remember all of the pain because from the pain comes the good. It's almost as if you have to hurt or have pain to see the goodness. Sound kind of morbid or morose but I assure you it is not because by remembering I am able to look at my whole family with the new eyes I was given a year ago. It makes me appreciate them more. It reminds me of the old story of the yound childwho asked his parents if he could go in and be alone with thier new infant. The parents were a little leery but agreed after they turned on the baby moniter. As the youngster eneterd the room they sat and listened intently as the child walked up to the infants cribs and began talking to him, to thier amazwement the child started talking to the infant and then asked him in an urgent child's voice he said to the infant, please tell me about God, I'm starting to forget. That is how it is with me. If I do not constantly remind myslef, I start to forget. So here I am - remembering.

Really, all is well. Together as a family we have never been better. There is no anger or fighting it is calm and not the calm before the storm because the storm has passed. It's been over a year and I feel as if we are all starting to get our lives back. I have thought this before but this time I know it. Full Recover, never shaken, never a doubt.

I think God put the spirit in me to write today because of an upcoming recital Allie will be singin in tomorrow evening, You know that over the past six or seven months I ahve been taking Allie to her voice lessons which was thrilling enough that she was even able to sing and I thought it would be years before she regained her form but Wednesday evening at the pre-reciatl rehersal I listened to her sing and I was floored. Her first song I Have Confidence was apprapoe and she sand it well. I was so happy and inside of myself I was blown away as I though quietly - She is READY. At that moment there was not a doubt in my soul that she was ready for the stage - right then and there I knew she without a doubt was Ready. Then she sand her second song and it was so true and so meaningful in the words that I knew God gave that song to her instructor to sing. When you walk through a song, keep your head up high. (Did she not walk through astorm and she has held her heal so high) and don't be afraid of the dark (she never has been) at the end of the storm is a golden sky (her middle name is Syke) and as she emerges into Full Recovery she certainly is a Golden Skye and the sweet silver song of a lark (her angles?) walk on through the rain, walk on through the storm though your dreams be tossed and turned (and they were). Holy crap, here she was on stage a Golden Skye - she walked through the storm and continues to do so. Phew, by remembering I am able to see all of the waking dreams that I do not see when I am to bust "in life".

On the ride home from the rehersal, I told Allie how wonderful she sang and let her know that I thought she was ready. I could tell how proud she was. Then I asked her if there were any tryouts for plays coming up and she told me everything was booked for the summer. Bummer but who knows everything works out. Then about an hour ago she came to me and asked for a ride downtown. When I asked why she told me there was a tryout for Radio Girls, a musical comedy, just her thing. Well I was dirty from working in the yard so Nancy scopped her up and drove her downtown. Tryouts are today and tomorrow so we won;t know for a few days but as soon as I find out, so will you.

I really have missed writing and thanking you all for your continued love and support. Take it slow today and look for the angels and God signals in your life.

Love you all - Full Recovery - Never a Doubt
Allie's Dad