Thursday, July 24, 2008

Thursday Evening, July 25th

Well it sure has been a long time and quite a bit has been happening. In light of a few minor personality clashes and my heart breaking (because she does not need me the way she used to) I would say that God has been very very good to us.

What more can I say except that right now Allie is out with a friend and amazingly as it may sound, she drove herself downtown and will drive herself home. I think back to the days when she way lying in a coma with her head bandaged and now she is driving. She had her final check up with the neurologist the other day and her was very pleased and cleared her to drive. It's all happening so fast but it could not have come at a better time as she was getting extremely bored. We live out in the woods, town is an 18 minute drive and the mall is an hour so she was getting frustrated. I really felt bad for her after a while. Here we have an 18 year old girl that had absolutely no control over her life or over her actions right at the time when she needed to spread her wings. I thank God for the second chance she has recieved. Scared *<^%, you bet but whatever is going to happen is going to happen and there is nothing I nor anyone else can do about it unless we put her in a bubble.

It is so odd but Nancy and I are getting some time together again and it is great. we go out for drives at night with the convertable top down through the countryside and we are at peace. We count our blessings and talk. The amazing part is that we are not worried about being away from her, we do not live every moment in fear that soemthing is going to happen while we are out or that she is going to have a huge blow out with her brother. I thank God because I know not like I always have that she is going to be able to make a life for herself. She is going to recover fully and she is going to be able to go to school if she wants but she will be able to get a job, whatever it may be, she will be able to support herself and she will life a good life. Totally blessed.

At Allie's urging we went back toi the hospital on Tuesday to visit the nurses who loved her so much and it is always wonderful for them to see her. They all gather around so proud and so happy that she is doing so well. She is truly one of thier success stories. We did not get to see Dr. Gardner - my main man - in my eyes the man who brought her back to us with his loving skill. The man is a true vehicle. It is alway nice to go back and not have to stay. I met with one of the hospital administrators while I was there are we are working on getting a Full Recovery Support group started in the hospital. It is so needed. Being away for awhile you can lose touch and that is not something that I ever want to do and I never will.

So mauch happens when a trauma occurs, not only to the person but to the family and it takes so long to recover for everyone.

To my friends and loved ones and those still suffering I wish you a speedy recovery.

From all of us, we love you - keep the faith - God's delay is not God's denial!!

Full recovery - Never a Doubt

Allie's Dad

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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Wednesday Morning, June 25, 2008

Hi Everyone

Been a little. Here is the scoop. Allie is doing well and certainly growing as a person in all ways. She is certainly growing to a new level and we think it is because she is finally off of all her medications. She is much more "alive" now and in a couple of weeks when her system is totally cleaned out she will probably reach all new levels. She is now initiating and being active and doing workbooks and puzzles, all things she was not doing before. Now when she is sitting watching television she picks up her blue jeans and does cross stitch o them. She has been going to the pool and as of Monday we have let her drive the car to the pool by herself. When her system is cleaned out and she drives with me a few more times we will let her begin driving again - a whole new lease on life.

Allie has been singing at church again and has begun to realize that if she wants to be a singer she has to practice a lot and so now she is singing all of the time. Sweet music. As far as school, who the heck knows and really who the heck cares - if - when- whatever all in good time. We are looking into a tutor to come over the house a few days a week and suprisingly we have met with no resistance in fact Allie said, I trust you and if that's what you think I need then let's do it. Cool.

Well, that's all for now. God bless.

Allie's Dad

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Sunday, June 8, 2008

Sunday Evening, June 6th

Taken awhile to get back as I know that some of y'all want to know what happened to Allie at the audition. She sang beautifully for the play and was told so by the directors but they did not give her the part. On any other day it would have been hers but this was a very big part and the person was on stage for 2 straight hours; they, like I felt that would have been to much right now but they all love Allie.

Allie is coming off of her medicine slowly (the right way) and will be driving on her own in 4-6 weeks. She is filling out an application for Brevard College and excellent theatre and music college right here in our own little town and I heard a few minutes ago that she went to K-Mart to apply for a summer job. This really inspires me because it shows she is initiating things and wants to get in the work force where her friends are. Yeah!

All is good at home. Matt and I just finished getting our scuba certifications today and it is great to spend time with him and have a sport/hobby in common - something we can do together for many years to come. I like that because we will always be able to go on vacation together (alone) and have that father - son time. Makes me happy. I life I look down the road and create visions of where I see myself and it is a nice vision to see me and him sitting around a dive hotel on a tropical island for a few days just being together - smile!

Quick update, love you all but I have 12,000 pounds of gravel in the driveway that isn't gonna move itself.

Have an AWESOME DAY!

Allie's Dad

PS - I will have a new picture and some video of her singing as soon as I refigure out how

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Saturday, May 31, 2008

Saturday Afternoon, May 31, 2008

HI Everyone

Wow. Mistake in the first word and I am still not going to go back and correct it. I really don;t know where I left off because I still have not gone back to read the blog but something told me to write again. You Know, the longer you get away from the accident the more you seem to forgetbut the more you seem to remind yourself because you do not want to forget. You want to remeber or at least I want to remember all of the pain because from the pain comes the good. It's almost as if you have to hurt or have pain to see the goodness. Sound kind of morbid or morose but I assure you it is not because by remembering I am able to look at my whole family with the new eyes I was given a year ago. It makes me appreciate them more. It reminds me of the old story of the yound childwho asked his parents if he could go in and be alone with thier new infant. The parents were a little leery but agreed after they turned on the baby moniter. As the youngster eneterd the room they sat and listened intently as the child walked up to the infants cribs and began talking to him, to thier amazwement the child started talking to the infant and then asked him in an urgent child's voice he said to the infant, please tell me about God, I'm starting to forget. That is how it is with me. If I do not constantly remind myslef, I start to forget. So here I am - remembering.

Really, all is well. Together as a family we have never been better. There is no anger or fighting it is calm and not the calm before the storm because the storm has passed. It's been over a year and I feel as if we are all starting to get our lives back. I have thought this before but this time I know it. Full Recover, never shaken, never a doubt.

I think God put the spirit in me to write today because of an upcoming recital Allie will be singin in tomorrow evening, You know that over the past six or seven months I ahve been taking Allie to her voice lessons which was thrilling enough that she was even able to sing and I thought it would be years before she regained her form but Wednesday evening at the pre-reciatl rehersal I listened to her sing and I was floored. Her first song I Have Confidence was apprapoe and she sand it well. I was so happy and inside of myself I was blown away as I though quietly - She is READY. At that moment there was not a doubt in my soul that she was ready for the stage - right then and there I knew she without a doubt was Ready. Then she sand her second song and it was so true and so meaningful in the words that I knew God gave that song to her instructor to sing. When you walk through a song, keep your head up high. (Did she not walk through astorm and she has held her heal so high) and don't be afraid of the dark (she never has been) at the end of the storm is a golden sky (her middle name is Syke) and as she emerges into Full Recovery she certainly is a Golden Skye and the sweet silver song of a lark (her angles?) walk on through the rain, walk on through the storm though your dreams be tossed and turned (and they were). Holy crap, here she was on stage a Golden Skye - she walked through the storm and continues to do so. Phew, by remembering I am able to see all of the waking dreams that I do not see when I am to bust "in life".

On the ride home from the rehersal, I told Allie how wonderful she sang and let her know that I thought she was ready. I could tell how proud she was. Then I asked her if there were any tryouts for plays coming up and she told me everything was booked for the summer. Bummer but who knows everything works out. Then about an hour ago she came to me and asked for a ride downtown. When I asked why she told me there was a tryout for Radio Girls, a musical comedy, just her thing. Well I was dirty from working in the yard so Nancy scopped her up and drove her downtown. Tryouts are today and tomorrow so we won;t know for a few days but as soon as I find out, so will you.

I really have missed writing and thanking you all for your continued love and support. Take it slow today and look for the angels and God signals in your life.

Love you all - Full Recovery - Never a Doubt
Allie's Dad

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Wednesday, May 14th 2008

Where does one begin. It has been one year to the day that Allie had her accident; one that changed her life, our lives and the lives of countless people around the world. As I write it is 365 days ago to this moment that she was being rescued by some very special people and Nancy and I knew nothing of what was going on. We were unaware that at that very moment as we sat watching TV she was fighting for her life . Call it a mother intuition but Nancy was uneasy all night which was not like her; she did not eat dinner that night and kept saying she had an uneasy feeling - at 10:00pm we found out what that feeling was - it seems so long ago but the uneasyness remains not in the same way but in ways that we live with everyday. It's getting better.

Today was a very happy day for me. It was kind of a birthday I thought. I did not share this feeling but I thought of today as Allie's real birthday and someday I may ask her if she would like to celebrate her Birthday on May 14 vs. her real birthday. I thought of the differences. On February 6th God brought her into this world but on May 14th he gave her another opportunity - a rebirth, a new chance at life. She was blessed and so were we.

Who knows why things happen the way they do or why they happen to certain people (I never thought it would happen to me) but I can and will safely say that it was only our faith in God and his plan that we (Allie included) survived and as Nancy says, "we survived intact." We can out of this whole.

I remember the days before the accident and I would take today hands down. Today we are more loving, more compassionate, more honest, and more patient. We enjoy each others company and that's good because we are together alot. We are all at peace - with the accident and with our lives in general. We are all OK with where we are today and we look forward to a bright bright future.

Allie is great. Everyday she gets better and better. The are still moments of minor concern but we have all learned how to deal with them and accept them as a part of healing. Brain injuries take a long, long time we are told but again that is thier perception, one which we refuse to accept as we have refused to accept the medical standard on every aspect of her journey. That has helped! Why accept what others say is normal? Why accept limitations? We can't do it and we always refused to do so.

Allie is out tonight at a friends house, something that astounds us. Sometimes you don't want to say anthing about her healing because you don't want to jinx it but then that wouldn't be having 100% faith but maybe sometimes I'm only 99%. Sometimes I worry when she goes out but that's just normal. I don;t worry about her health wise, it's more of a parental thing, you don't want anybody to be mean to her or take advantage of her. That is my biggest fear/worry, that someone may hurt her. I know it is unfounded but......

Tomorrow we will register her for one class at our local community college. Asheville was to soon but now may be the time to try again. I go into this as I do with everything, no expecting anything and completely unattached to the outcome. She will do great. Really it is incredible to see how far she has come. She is so nice all of the time, she loves to laugh again and she wants to get on with her life. She is ameniable to every form of therapy we come up with and she will soon be driving in a few weeks barring any ............. I have let her drive me around and she is a good drive, always was, so that's a lesson right there.

Once of the things I really wanted to do tonight was to say Happy Birthday to Allie and to share a little bit about where we are now but really I wanted to say thank you a million times over to all of the people who loved us and prayed for us and helped us in our time of need. Thank you to God, and Beth and Kent who found her and to Marty who stayed with her and for two and half hours keeping her alive until she got cut out of the car. Holy crap Marty - Thank You, Thank You, Thank You a million times Thank you to the paramedics and the helocopter pilots, Thank you to the ER personnel and to Dr. Stephen Gardner my hero and a brilliant neurosurgeon, your skills are one of the reasons Allie is out tonight enjoying herself and when I tried to thank you you were so humble thank you and thank you to everyone at Greenville Memorial, The Ronald McDonald House a truly sacred place Thank you to everyone at the Roger C. peace Center (yes we love Mark Clark) and the entire staff of therapists. Thank you to Lowery, a reverend who addopted us and visited us in the hospital many times he is also Beth's husband, Thank You and Thank God for Tommy Owen another ministed who single handidly help me stay sane and whose faith gave me faith. Thank you to all of our friends, and supporters, (to many to list but you know who you are), Thanks you to all of the FLYBabies who loved us and supported us. Thank you to the two Marlas - one was the first person to the hospital and one showered Allie with love and gifts and prayers. Her genorosity to total strangers we had never experienced and may never again. She practiced more than a random act of kindness and her picture is on my refrigerator. If I could build a shrine to all of you, I would. I know I am missing people but I am getting emotional, it's late and really I am just typing and trying not to think to hard. I never want to lose the emotions of those days but I am stsrting to relive them and my heart is beginning to hurt so let's move on. My heart does not hurt foe me or Allie or my family but it hurts for the many friends we have made, it hurts because I can feel their emotions as they fight thier own struggles. I pray for all of them. We have been blessed.

I have really worked at being honest and open about my feelings and about what has transpired over the last year. The blog has been cathardic for me. It has eased my heart and helped me deal with everything. I am glad I had it.

Well, if an.yone is still out there - thank you for checking it

Full Recovery - Never a Doubt
Allie's Dad

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Monday, March 31, 2008

Monday Morning, March 31 2008

The days are getting easier with less tension and worry. We can now go for days without a fight or a struggle and life is becoming normal. We have been there before but I feel as if the other shoe has already dropped so one day at a time we walk with God. This has become a great thing for all of us. We have taken a lot of the hurry out of life and yet, as promised we are provided for.

Allie is doing well. She is a new and improved person as she walks the trail of recovery. You reach an odd point when the person does not know they are recovering to the time they realize that something is different and they themselves understand it. The better part is when they actually work towards recovering themselves with that goal in mind. What can I do to help myself recover? In business there is the story about different levels of person. The unconscious incompetent - they don't know they don't know; the conscious competent - they know they don't know; the conscious competent - they have the think about what they are doing and the unconscious competent - this is what we all strive for - being so good at something that it is automatic - second nature. This is what all brain injuries strive for - becoming the conscious competent. We are not there yet but time and caring people her will allow her to reach her fullest recovery.

Allie has become very bored sitting around the house while mom or dad worked and has taken some steps to solve that. She has become a volunteer at a church day care center and she loves it. Only been there once so far but she has a great time with little children and her heart is so big that that are automatically attracted to her. She will also begin waiting tables again this week. The inn where she worked before opens tomorrow and they offered her her position back. Now for the crazy part. With her personality she wanted to do some DJ work so she was to train with a comapny but they wanted to get out of the DJ business and focus on their equipment rentals so, you guessed it, we are now in the DJ business. Stay tuned for that one. Thank God we have their best DJ (Marcus) staying with us and he isa training Allie - First gig is Friday night at a middle school dance. Just one more way for me to lose my sanity but we walk all avenues.

Right now we are looking at more colleges for Allie in the area. Today I will pick up the class schedules for summer school from our local CC and she will take one or two classes right her in our town to she how she does. Nest week I will fly her to a college in Salisbury, NC where she will sing at an audition. Who knows? Great school, great college (Catawba) but in the mountain of NC and not the lights of Broadway (yet)

The only negative and believe me it is not a negative about becoming aware is the sadness that accomapnies the realization she has of what was and what is. It is not bad or often and I think 3 days of rain and being inside can trigger it in anyone but still, counseling should help.

Well off to work. Hope you all have a great day. We love you and thank you for your thoughts, prayers and gifts. May you always be blessed.

Allie's Dad

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Wednesday Evening, March 18th, 2008

Hi Everyone

Just a quick note to update everyone to Allie's whereabouts. For the last five weeks she has been home with us. School didn't work out but it was a heck of an effort. We are enthusiastically looking forward to September or whenever. Right now Allie is just healing and is looking for a part time job possibly in a day care. She has a gift working with little children - they have always been very attracted to her. She is back to her singing lessons and looking for ways to stay active. Right now she is kind of just plain bored but tomorrow we will visit a couple of local churches that have day cares in them and the inn where she waitress' will be opening in another week. We will be going back to some therapies in a week. Anything and everything - right?

On a more fun side she did get her nose pierced and believe it or not it is just adorable - even big daddy approved - aw heck - I took her to get it and she was brave - even when I couldn't go in the room with her. She wanted to back out once in the room but she went through with it - it was a big step. She is getting back into putting on makeup and being fashionable.

We have little tiffs but nothing like before and they end almost as soon as they begin. We spent 5 days at the beach together and had a great time.

Well she is now home (right where she belongs) and accepting mail at 91 Ugedaliyvi Ct. (yeah I spelled it right), Brevard, NC 28712.

Thank you all so much for your continued prayers and support.

God Bless You - Happy Easter

Allie's Dad

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