- The days are now starting to run together and get kind of long but we can rest in the end.
It's all so wierd. Just a few days ago our daughter was singsing and laughing, making plans to go to college and acting in plays and in the blink of an eye she is in a wheelchair with staples in her head talking incessantly about nothing that makes sense and yet I am not angry nor do I blame but have a calm sense of everything being OK. I mean it is so bizarre to have your child in this state - beyond comprehension, yet it is what it is and you have to be OK. She was what she was then, whe is what she is now and she will be what she will be and she is beautiful and brilliant and overcoming the challenges of a lifetime. I used to say watch out world before all of this happened, holy cow, watch out universe when she recovers from this.
Honestly, the serenity which comes from acceptance is amazing. I am not so much worried for Allie as I am for sweet Nancy at this moment, she is so strong but how long can she go for. Allie at this time could exhaust a saint in a matter of hours much less someone who has been with her for 37 days in a row. I will be heading down tomorrow afternoon to relieve her for hopefull a day or two so she can come home. She wants to help Matt pack for camp - he leaves on monday for a month. How awesome - he is my hero and an awesome big brother.
Throughout all of this I continually thank God for this blessing and for giving all of us this experience that we can work through together. I thank him for allowing us to be his servants and for entrusting us as messengers. We have met so many truly good people along this journey and have helped others deal with their own grief. What has happened is not bad it is a life experience from which we will all come to know God better and will all come to love each other more. How many people have truly looked at their child and loved them unconditionally. How many have been given the opportunity to marvel everyday at thier triumphs and how many have held thier hands and whispered to them how incredible they were. Sure there are challeges and sure it is frustrating, work becomes less (temporarily), bills mount up and yadda yadda but your child is alive and being given a second chance and you are honored and blessed to be a part of it. Does it suck? Sure it does but in the smallest most insignificant sense. Look at all of the good. Full Recovery - Never a Doubt has become a revolution and is growing bigger everyday. Someday, we will have a world wide brother/sisterhood of people who will believe that Full Recovery is a possibility. We will have created something fat bigger than ourselves that will bring love and hope and healing to millions of people and it all started with Allie - and she dosen;t even know it and believe it or not someday is right now as we have people who have emailed us from Russia, India, S. Africa, UK, Spain and a bunch of other countries I either can't remember or spell right now - hey it's 10:40 PM and I started today at 6:00.
Allie was awesome today!!!!!!!! She woke up very agitated but calmed down and did very well in her therapies, but man is this a difficult phase. She is walking incrdibly well right now and no one can believe how she is doing it. When I got to the hospital aroung 7:00 this evening, she was practically walking by herself - without the walker! Yesterday we had two people and barely got ten steps. Today just one person to mildly steady her and she's walking out of her room, halfway down the hallway and back??????? The miracle girl of NC. After I got there and before her hallway walk, we put her in a wheelchair and took her outside for a long walk. I brought our pomeranian dog (Atlas) with me tonight and they let him in the hospital. We walked outside for a long time and Allie loved being outside and the smell of fresh air. From there it was back inside and alot more demands. God grant me the serenity....... and may I please have a double dose of patience.
Well what can tomorrow bring? Who knows of I firmly believe in what I call the creative principle or seeing from the end backwards - so everynight I see Allie singing and starring in a Broadway play and Matthew, Nancy and I are in the front row cheering her on. I know it, I believe it, I see it and together, we will all achieve it.
Thank you for believing in Allie and her dreams. Please help all of the dreams come true by ordering a Full Recovery T-Shirt or blacelet the more we can get out in the world and the faster we can do it the quicker we can help more people. Call us at (828) 885-7100 or e-mail me at drcagen@citcom.net
Good night and God Bless
Allie's Dad
3 comments:
You are obviously an awesome man with an awesome daughter. I hope you will allow me to sit with you on that front row of whatever theater it might be. God be with you. She'a a fighter!!!
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I just got an urgent prayer request from my church - our former worship leaders wife and 3 children have just been in a rollover accident and the two older children (boy 8 and girl 10 or 11) were ejected. Their mom and younger sibling are going to a separate hospital, and mom was the one who called the church to let us know, so she is at least coherent, but must be worried sick. Dad was in Mexico and is now on his way to his family. Steve I have been praying for you and Allie for so many days and I have followed her progress. I do not want to ask for anything from you so that you can continue to focus on Allie but prayer is so easy and so powerful! - Please use that Prayer Power for this family right now. Their last name is Shackelford. Thank you and God Bless! I will continue to pray for all of you and I will let you know about the Shackelfords as I get more information - but remember: Full Recovery - Never a Doubt!
Steve, I have already gotten an update, here goes: The kids' mom has broken ribs, the youngest son and only daughter are bruised and sore with minor cuts but are okay (the daughter was one that was ejected) and the middle child, the other child that was ejected was literally rolled onto, but because of all of the rain, sank into the ground some. He has bruising on his brain, a collapsed lung that they are re-inflating with a chest tube and also a contusion on his head that they are taking care of. The Shackelfords are ALL at the same hospital in Houston, TX. Much better news than I expected with a tire-blowout and THREE time rollover...praise the Lord they are together and in God's Hands! Full Recovery - Never a Doubt!
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