Sunday Morning, September 16th

Stayed up quite last last night putting together the finishing touches on the game room and it was the best thing we have ever done. Now, instead of staying in the small den all the time we are all together in the large living room (which we are now living in) and faving fun together. Instead of just watching tv we are all gettin active together. We have a piano and weights and a treadmill in the room so there is alot to do. There is also a couch so if you just want to hang out with everyone you can. Yesterday I was sitting in the den after a five hour job of cleaning out the garage. and I was sitteng in the den and there was Allie playing the piano, Matt shooting pool and Nancy just sitting on the couch talking with them. Hallmark moment

The last few days have been kind of difficult with alot of snippyness and some old behavior and today was the head of it all. While you understand that there is an injury, you can sometimes be lulled into a false sense of security. You know while she is still in the learning phase and and you can see her deficits, you can go along thinking everything is now peaches and cream and will stay that way until you get another rude awakening. Now not real bad but just enough to create an underlying but noticeable tension and uneasiness. Actually I think you begin to worry again and wonder if you will ever stop and the more times it happens and the more you get your bubble broken - no matter how minor, it walwys takes you back to a more unpleasant time.

It's really hard if not impossible to use reason or logic with a tbi because the way they or she sees it is the way she sees and that's it. To my friend Mark Clark, she made me think of you today and laugh when she aske me if I COULD DO SOMETHING!

She will be seeing the new neurologist tomorrow and I am looking forward to a fresh start in a new city. Then piano lesson in the afternoon and a visit to the cranial -sacral doctor. Long day, I hope she is up for it. The anti-seizure medication really makes her tired and she likes to go to bed before 8 pm. Your mind just never stops and you do on a spiritual level try to figure out why or was there anythiong you did or could have done differently you can'yt put alot of time or emotion into it. Personally I don't believe it could have been done any differently, In the whole grand scheme of things this was preordained and destined to happen and if you hold on to your failth you cna hold on to your calmness and enthusiastic oulook on the situation.

Sorry to keep popping in an out on blogs but when I blog at home interruptions occur.

Love and Recovery,
Allies Dad