Today's lesson. Allie is not ready to be in a play. She is doing so well at so many things that she can fool me at times and she did this time. Don't get me wrong, she did want to be in the play and had a great time at the tryouts but she really was not ready for such a big commitment, so I let the troupe know yesterday and they were (as always) so gracious. There sole intent was to help Allie and they did. I will always love and appreciate them for giving us this opportunity. We will be back in a few months. I have to tell you though that being at the tryouts with here and watching her read and laugh and interact in her own element was a few hours I will never forget. The thought of being in a play together with her was so exciting for me, a true father/daughter opportunity - it will be wonderful it it could happen again. If not, I will always treasure those two hours.
Nancy and Allie went to the movies last night and I had the opportunity to take Matt and one of his friends flying. That is one of those father/son things I love to do with him. We took off from Asheville airpost and just flew around over the mountain and watched the sun set. He likes it when I give him the controls and let him fly around. It's especially exciting when he has a friend in the plane.
My sister Roni got her this afternoon and it is always great to have her. She saw Allie the first few days in the hospital and is blown away by how she is now.
I feel like getting philosophical foe a few moments so please bear with me. Right now we have one hundred and twenty some odd posts up and in each one I have tried to be inspiring, honest and hopeful. I have never once complained, asked why, questioned or gotten angry, I accepted when I made the decision that our daughter could die or could come back a vegetable, para/quad. Every feeling was real and I have been comfortable with every one. I know God has a plan and a purpose for each of us and this was something we had to go through. It has not been easy but is getting that way. Whay am I saying this? Because for as much as I never questioned the action, sometimes I find myself questioning the result. Why is my girl healing so well? Why is she so good. For as bad as the accident was, as you know they were unsure she would not live the night and we allowed her to go if she needed to - there are no facial scars, no limps, no paralysis and please I am not complaining, feel where my heart is. It is just that sometimes as I write I am almost unwilling to share because I never want anyone to read this blog and feel as if I am bragging or gloating and I never, ever want to add to their pain or make them say why isn't my loved one doing as well. I don;t know and just as I didn't as why then, I can not ask why now but as I continue developing Full Recovery it almost makes me a little uncomfortable because I do not know the pain that some others are experiencing on a daily basis. I am just going to let them know that my heart is in the right place and I will do everything possible to help provide information and encouraging words to help ease everyone pain as they go through their own recovery.
Well gotta go
Allie's Dad
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Hello, dear Steve. Your comments in this wonderful blog since Day 1 have been an inspiration. You never appear to be bragging or insenstive to others who aren't progressing as fast as Allie is. Your love for everyone - especially those who still have loved ones hospitilized and in different situations - is sincere and true. Every time we hear of Allie accomplishing something - which is every single day - we feel nothing but happiness and awe. You are amazing and what you have done with Full Recovery is miraculous. Keep up the good work and never doubt or question a thing. You have taken this situation as an open door to greater things and are taking us with you!
Tibby
Dear Steve,
I appreciate where your heart is and that you would never want people to think that you are bragging about how well Allie is doing. Remember the most important thing is that GOD IS IN CONTROL. He has a reason for everything that happens on this earth... and beyond. I truly believe that the reason that Allie is doing so well and has no visable scars is that both you and Nancy have been faithful to God from the moment that you heard about the accident. You were ready to release your baby girl. You both stood in Abraham's shoes. You were willing to release her home to God, without question. Your hearts were aching, but you released her! You have shown by your example that when you are faithful to God, He is faithful to you. That is not bragging... that is being an awesome witness to faith in the power of God. He is blessing you all! Thank you both for your examples. That is not bragging... that is living God's witness. You are loved and lifted in prayer...
I have been following your blog since almost the beginning (I'm a flybaby) and as I was pondering this latest entry I had a thought... if Allie had not been doing as well as she has, you may not have had the intellectual, emotional or physical resources to make Full Recovery the website/movement a reality and consequently be able to help so many other people now and in the future. He does work in mysterious ways.... God bless you all.
Dear Nancy, Steve, Allie and Matt,
Thank you for all your honesty and the hope you put out there for everyone. It's neither bragging nor gloating. You've said it so many times in different ways - everything happens for a reason. You've helped me tremendously and for that I'm so grateful. Happy belated anniversary to you and Nancy - sounds like you had a great time. Allie, you are doing beautifully.
Always in our thoughts and prayers,
Love, Clare and Kim
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